Doctor

When God sometimes burdens us with illness, we wonder why. I'm still very unsure as to why God has given me this but, there has to be a reason, so I'm just going to put it in his hands like I've done from day 1 and see what happens. It's about an hour away from having to leave to head to the hospital, and honestly I am more scared now then when I was for the back surgery. I guess it was the whole "going on medication at 5A.M" thing that helped in that situation. Another reason might be because I was A.) Asleep through the whole back surgery B.) Knew exactly what was going on...in which case this scenario, I don't.

Enough about that, my internship is almost over. So what now ? The real world ? The move is starting to scare me more and more. I feel homesick without even stepping food out of my house for what is to come. God has me away from home for several reasons. I need to test my faith. I WANT to test my faith. Working in a church and for a Christian based radio station has given me the amazing opportunity to explore and expand my relationship with the Lord. But...how about a town full of unbelievers, full of new things, full of new choices...will my faith stand ? As long as I keep holding the hand of Christ through all of this, as long as I don't get ahead of myself and think I can do this on my own, as long as he remains my number 1 source and priority...I think I'll be o.k.

Off the doctor....yay